I don’t usually share my email conversations here, but this time I consider it important to do so, since I find that Paula’s experience is common to many people, and I thought it might be helpful to share my ideas with those of you who have similar concerns.
I base my whole outlook on not being judgmental, but in the end the people I love still judge me. In fact, I have made it an art to not judge people, so instead I just suffer because I realize that the people who judge me don’t really know me and don’t need to because they can think whatever they want. I somehow feel extra betrayed though, because I convinced myself that fair play is not judging. I know they are the ones losing because their own misery lies in their own perspective of the world…but when everyone does it, and I’m the only one that doesn’t…I am alone.
Is it possible that today the non-judgmental people are the snobs? Because that is the way it feels. Does that make sense to you?
First, one thing has to be made absolutely clear: being non-judgmental is not something that you do — it’s something that you are. Therefore trying to be non-judgmental will not make you any less judgmental than you are. In fact, the more you try to be non-judgmental, the more judgmental you’ll become, since your mind will be more focused on judgment. Try not to think of an elephant. What are you thinking of? I bet it’s an elephant!
Having a non-judgmental attitude is a result of the understanding that no one is perfect and everyone makes mistakes in life. It’s the realization that everyone has been through difficult times and is possibly moving towards a brighter tomorrow. It is the acceptance of the fact that every single person is a unique individual, and the comprehension that their individuality should be respected. A non-judgmental attitude gives others space to be who they are, and supports them in their efforts to turn into the best version of themselves.
Of course, the reality is that most people are quick to judge each other, and no matter how less we judge others, it’s most likely that we’ll be judged by them… a lot. Does that mean that judging others would make life easier for you, just because you’re being judged by them? Not at all. In fact, doing so could create a hell out of your life. In essence, to judge means to have certain expectations from people — to want them to be different than who they are — and the reality is that no one is going to fulfill your expectations. Hence emotional anguish and social conflict is inevitably experienced by those who are focused on judging people.
You say that you feel betrayed and suffer because of others judging you. But what does that mean? That you judge yourself according to the opinions others have of you. To be non-judgmental means first and foremost to stop judging your very self. How could you stop judging others if you can’t stop judging yourself? It’s impossible, for the way we see others is a reflection of how we see ourselves.
Lastly, yes, you’re right in saying that people who claim to be non-judgmental are usually snobs – they are the ones who try to boost their egos by claiming that they are non-judgmental. Instead of trying to boost their egos by judging others — like most do — they do so by pretending to be saint-like. But this also comes from a judgmental mentality. If you are non-judgmental, what is the need of shouting to the world that you are so?
If you feel judgmental, there’s no point in trying to show that you’re not. Simply accept the fact that you are, and try to look into why that is so. Why the constant need to judge others? What is the reason behind your judgmental attitude and how does it make your life any better? Once you start sincerely asking those questions, you’ll change how you look at yourself and others, and this will be a good first step to developing a non-judgmental attitude.
Love and light,